NO Acting Please

As I've been scurrying about lately, from castings to work, more interviews, talking on the phone to family and friends, reading and yoga, I feel like I'm starting to rush through life again. This feeling is not too forgotten, I have known it very well for many years. Trying to accomplish so much... TOO MUCH. Never having ENOUGH time or energy. Simply trying to pack too many things into an hour, a day, a week... & then feeling disappointed when I don't accomplish everything I set out to do. Putting too high of standards on myself (on purpose or not?? I'm not too sure) I wonder... is it a self-sabotaging method? Do I destine myself towards inevitable failure by setting unrealistic goals or am I simply trying to push myself to higher levels, new depths, a better, more evolved ME, the best me I can BE. HOPEFULLY the second, but sometimes I wonder...

The most important of the six words above being BE not Best. Because Best is subject to interpretation by all, especially myself as it can be seen above... but the act of BEING is KEY. I have begun to take on a whole new understanding of this concept through my progressive reading of NO ACTING PLEASE by Eric Morris and Joan Hotchkis. Forword by Jack Nicholson.

It has proved to help many individuals in and out of the acting/entertainment business. With an emphasis on how people try too hard to be something... and a combination of this fake self and their real life worries, tension, and problems get in the way of being. Because you either try to overcompensate or ignore/cover them up- & it results in a fake unorganic METHOD OF LIVING, and living should not be a method!! Habbits and conceptions often place us in our own self-perpetuating action boxes. How and what we say and do. Everything, encounters, actions, even quiet self-reflecting time is run by us, and instead of having it SET- (happen a certain way) We MUST let ORGANIC/ NATURAL actions, feelings, words, moods... DEVELOP AND OCCUR. It is the ONLY way to TRULY LIVE, TO TRUELY FIND YOURSELF... the REAL YOU.

Because hiding and masking these tensions only perpetuate the problem and leave you feeling unfulfilled with life and yourself. Lately I have been trying to rid myself of tension and stress & it has been difficult while searching for and picking up another job. I couldn't find the CORE OF THE STRESS AND TENSION. I knew wearing myself thin on time and packing too many things to do in my schedule had a part in it, but it wasn't the CORE.

THIS BOOK has helped me realize where MOST tensions originate from. Tension occurs due to the SUPPRESSION OF IMPULSE. All things, little or big, that you hold back, feelings, actions, words. They are part of you!! & deep down you wan't to express them, but you hold yourself back for some reason?! FEAR! Fear of rejection or criticisim or whatever it might be, but you are HOLDING BACK A TRUE AND ORIGINAL/NATURAL PART OF YOURSELF. & ALL THESE SUPPRESSIONS BUILD UP.

So as for me.. LESS suppression- More ME!! Here goes WORLD... are you ready for AMY RICH?! The real me- unsurpressed- All OUT- BALLS TO THE WALL- Uncensored- True- Organic- Doesn't get any better than this----- ME!!

BECAUSE I CAN ONLY BE ME.

SO TAKE ME FOR WHO I AM. BECAUSE I'M JUST GOING TO KEEP ON BEING ME, & YES I DO CHANGE & I DO BETTER MYSELF, but I do it in a natural and organic way... a way that FEELS RIGHT TO ME. SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, THEN I GUESS IT WASN'T MEANT TO BE. BUT THAT'S EXACTLY & ONLY WHAT I'M GOING TO DO. TO BE.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!
always and forever.

Amy Lynn