A Good Job & a Good Cry

I GOT A JOB!! Today was my second day of training at this great little restaurant in Union Square. It is just a few blocks from my house and so far everything seems to be going amazingly. It is an American style restaurant with a lot of Brazillain Flair. The interesting thing about this place is that it is owned by three previous models and is notorious for hiring good looking models/actors as staff. The uniform is the best part because you get to wear your own stylish clothes!! All the people I've worked with so far have been amazing, full of life, spunk, and so many different energies coming from all creative angles. Hopefully I'll be able to make a decent amount of money from tips and still make it to castings and do shoots in my free time. While also managing this blog, my friends and family, a little bit of a social life, and the never ending pesky little daily tasks/errands that sometimes give me the downers... but I think it happens to everyone ;-)

Anyways, after being quite stressed on time, money, and confusion- I had myself an EXCELLENT cry tonight. It was absolutely amazing!! & honestly- it really just felt wonderful to let out all the pent up emotions.

Sometimes life is just too frightening. Coming to the BIG CITY has taught me infinite lessons and insights. I have learned that their is a far greater world out there than just the beautiful backyard of the Adirondacks. That there are billions of people all trying to make it. (There is always someone a little more desperate, a little worse off, a little more willing to do what you are doing & to do it happily) Everyone has their own dream, their own life, their own obstacles... they've all fought their own demons in their past, overcome obstacles, lived through the good and the bad, set plans for the future... made someone proud, fell disappointed with a failure, strived for more, hoped for a miracle, tried to change for the better, done things they regret and even worse abstained from things they later always wished they had done... EVERYONE goes through these hard times.. when all you want to do is wash away your tears with your vice of choice, escape your pain, but really the hardest thing to do, is to look it in the eye- face your demon- give it a mean stare down- lol- and say; NO, I won't give up. I won't let these feelings overwhelm me. I won't drown in my sorrows. I will stand up. I will formulate a plan. I will CONQUER my dreams. I WILL SUCCEED!

I am me, I am unique, some people will like me and some won't, but I can't please everyone and it's not my job to, my job is a personal obligation to myself... TO LIVE LIFE. TO BE HAPPY. TO LIVE IN THE MOMENT. & TO BE THE BEST DAMN ME I CAN BE- DOING WHATEVER IT IS AT THE MOMENT THAT GETS ME THERE. PLAIN AND SIMPLE. I WON'T SIT AROUND AND WAIT FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN, I'M GONNA MAKE THEM HAPPEN & I'M GOING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF LIFE'S OPPORTUNITIES AS THEY COME TO ME. BECAUSE ALL THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE ALIKE & THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING TO LEARN- SO WITH AN OPEN MIND AND AN OPEN HEART, I MOVE ON- GIVING * DOING * BEING ---- LIFE IS A MYSTERIOUS THING, BUT I WON'T SIT AROUND QUESTIONING IT- I'M GOING TO LIVE EVERY MINUTE I CAN::: FULL FORCE....


SO HERE GOES:: THE BATTLE CONTINUES:: FULL SPEED AHEAD:: on THIS JOURNEY I CALL "THE CRAZY LIFE OF AMY RICH" :-D

Love Always & Forever (No matter my Mood) lol
Amy Lynn